Thanks, Epilepsy!

It’s hard to imagine thanking anything or anyone that has barged into your life unexpected and flipped it entirely upside down. Stirring your emotions in a tornadic way. Leaving you with many uncertainties and feelings of worry or fear. Almost as if standing in the middle of the aftermath of an intense hurricane. Left to begin anew, following the diagnosis.

I was diagnosed almost ten years ago. Four months after marrying the love of my life. Days before our birthdays, and just a few short weeks before Christmas. My whole world felt as if it had collapsed on me. I felt empty and devastated. Wondering why this had happened to me. Thinking long and hard if I had done anything within my life to have maybe caused this to have happened. I blamed myself. I blamed God. Depression was my blanket for the coldness that had overcome me. My outlook on the future was a dead end.

That is, until my husband and family banned together to lift me up. Piece me back together and ignite a fire in my spirit. I had hit rock bottom, however sometimes the best part about rock bottom is that you can only go up from there.

And so in doing so, I gained a new perspective. A new outlook on my diagnosis. I set aside the blame. The feelings of emptiness and devastation faded away. I no longer let time pass by with wonder and questioning my regrets of the past. Do I blame myself? No. Do I blame God? Not at all. Emotionally, I cannot say that I am perfect. No one can. If they did, they would be lying. I do all that I can to be okay with my diagnosis. I have accepted it. At times, I will find myself sad. Sometimes, I wipe away a tear or two. Most times, I feel empowered.

The best part about rock bottom is that you can only go up from there.

My outlook on the future is positive absolutely. I don’t know what the lies ahead, of course. No one does, unless you’re Dr. Emmett Brown from Back To The Future. If my epilepsy is cured, wonderful. If it is not, I accept this. In my heart, my passion is to spend my life educating and advocating to and with all who are affected by epilepsy and the public. To have a family most definitely and lead a happy, healthy life.

I laugh, ironically, at the thought of the things I thank epilepsy for. Below is the list:

  • Thank you for showing me who my true friends are.
  • Thank you for bringing my family and I closer together.
  • Thank you for causing me to analyze myself and remove all that was unhealthy in my life.
  • Thank you for giving me the inspiration to take on a healthier lifestyle.
  • Thank you for drawing me closer to God.
  • Thank you for making my husband and I’s relationship even stronger than it has ever been and will ever be.
  • Thank you for giving me the courage to overcome my timidness.
  • Thank you for helping me accept and take on challenges.
  • Thank you for helping me to become more creative.
  • Thank you for helping me become an advocate against you.
  • Thank you for helping me become motivated to help others rise above you.

Thank you for being the mountain that I stand atop of and plant my flag and proclaim, “I will not be overcome.”

What would you thank epilepsy for? Share your list in the comments below.

I am a happily-ever-after wife, an Epilepsy Diagnosee, Advocate for Epilepsy Awareness (The Epilepsy Network), life lover & Christ inspired! Life is a journey and I'm loving every moment of it. Even the bumps in the road!


  • Rhonda

    It was hard for me to think of something to list. I guess I would say I am thankful that epilepsy has given more ways for God to show, both to me and to others, that He is powerful (such as when we pray about keeping me safe).

  • Paul Turner

    What a fantastic, well written message! I am a 61 yr old male diagnosed with epilepsy when I was 55. For me, I was surprised b/c I’m in pretty good shape (for the last 25 yrs I’ve been regular power walker & enthusiastric trail bike rider). Still for some reason Epilepsy has entered my life. Currently I am on my 5th & 6th drugs (Vimpat & Dilantin). Plus I had brain surgery in Jan 2016 on my left temporal lobe (20 months ago). As of Sept 14/17, I have achieved seizure freedom of 11 months (longest I have ever done in 6 yrs) and am determined to keep this up. Thank you again for your wonderfully written message. It benefits many people with Epilepsy.

  • Jennifer Sherry

    Thank you epilepsy for keeping me alive!
    Thank you for making me stronger!
    Thank you for making me an Epilepsy advocate!
    Thank you for making me a peer.
    Thank you for giving me great friends. Thank you for educating me and my family about epilepsy!

  • jesse

    Thanks epilepsy for basically screwing up everything I have liked to do in my life but at the same time making me a stronger person for being able to put up with the screw ups

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