When it came to driving, in preparation for my driving exam, I vigorously practiced in school and church parking lots with family as to pass the official exam with flying colors. I was very elated to have my license to take myself places on my own without assistance from others. To have the freedom to go where I please. I dreamed of summer days with the windows down, wind in my hair and music paving the way to where I go. Vigorous practice paying off, receiving my drivers license was definitely a very good day. It wasn’t long after that I purchased my very first car. It was nothing fancy. A little gold Kia Sephia that I nicknamed ‘Nugget’. My little piece of gold that would take me on all sorts of adventures around town and further. And yes, my summer dreams of wind in the hair and music paving the way came to be. It was a nice piece of independence that I cherished very much. All of this was before I were to be diagnosed with Epilepsy. I lived a happy healthy life during this time. No health issues. No seizures. I had no idea what lie in wait about two years later. Me and my Kia often drove to quiet parks to watch the sun rise and sun set. Drove winding roads to watch horses roam the pastures. Drove to just get away and have me-time. Yeah, my Kia wasn’t fancy but I have plenty of fond memories with that little gold car. December 11, 2008, I hopped in my car to spend the day Christmas present shopping for my husband and family. This was to be my husband and I’s first official Christmas together, having just gotten married 4 months prior. This day was like any other day I had ever driven. It was Kia and I on another adventure. A beautiful winter morning. Snow glistening like diamonds and the rising sun pouring beautiful colors on everything it touched. I drove one road. I drove another road taking notice of a beautiful farm field lined with a white wooden fence. Taking a left on the next road was the last road I ever drove with my little gold Kia. I immediately lost all vision. My body weakened. Leaving me only seconds to slip my foot off of the gas pedal and onto the break, not knowing what was happening, I blacked out and suffered a seizure behind the wheel. Paramedics and witnesses say that my Kia and I drove through two front yards, over a cement curb, through a white fence and slammed into a pine tree in a third front yard. After receiving the official Epilepsy diagnosis and leaving the hospital, days later it was time to pick up my Kia. When we arrived at the impound, I had no idea what to expect. Chris came around the corner with my car. My battered and beaten gold nugget. It sat in the drive way for a while as I came to grips with my Epilepsy diagnosis. Knowing that this was the end of my ability to drive. I decided to sell my car to a man who wanted to fix it up and give it to his son for his very first car. Watching my very first car be driven away never to be seen again, I also made the decision to give up driving for good. I thanked God and I still thank God that I didn’t hurt anyone that day and that I only walked away with minor whiplash. I never want to put anyone or myself in danger so long as I live. I’m happy that I had the opportunity, as short as it was, to experience what its like to drive. To be in the drivers seat, to feel the wind in my hair and sing with the songs on the radio wherever it was that I was going. To watch the sun rise or to watch the sun set. I now learn to embrace the many great ways of transportation still available to me. Driving was nice but making the decision to release the keys to stay safe and keep others safe is also something I’m completely okay with. Maybe one day, when a cure can be found, I will get behind the wheel for another great adventure somewhere great.
I am a happily-ever-after wife, an Epilepsy Diagnosee, Advocate for Epilepsy Awareness (The Epilepsy Network), life lover & Christ inspired! Life is a journey and I'm loving every moment of it. Even the bumps in the road!