Epilepsy

Dear Epilepsy, You Lose

You strutted into my life unwelcome acting like a rock star. Taking center stage within my brain. Shocking and stunning my body whenever you felt the urge. I experience a surge of electricity that drains me. Yeah, at first I was lost in the crowd of tears and sorrow. I didn’t care for tomorrow’s.

Surrounding me, blanketed God and family. A mighty force who sought me out in the crowd of tears and sorrow and lifted me up. Lifted me up so that we stood same ground. Reaching inside and igniting the dimly lit flame of my spirit.

Pills, plenty of pills, every day, tests, visits to the doctor, it’s not ideal, no. It became my new reality. I needed to let go of how things used to be. I needed to shed the desire for my old life. My new life lie ahead and it was how I would create it to be.

Is epilepsy easy? No, it’s not easy. It’s not simply a physical challenge. It challenges emotionally, socially, even spiritually. There are good days and there are bad days.

It not only affects the person diagnosed, it affects everyone involved in these ways. No one wants epilepsy affecting them or someone that they love.

You may seize my mind and body but my heart and spirit, and the hearts and spirits of those who love me, continue to grow stronger each day.

The day that you, epilepsy, barged into my life, like a tornado striking and destroying so much, believing that you were going to not only seize me physically but emotionally and spiritually, was the day that God was preparing a plan far grander than could be imagined.

Rather than losing to you, I’ve learned from you. Rather than hiding away, I took my own center stage, rather than fearing you, I gathered all of my faith.

“You may seize my mind and body but my heart and spirit, and the hearts and spirits of those who love me, continue to grow stronger each day.”

Life is a beautiful gift. So much to offer. So much to be grateful and thankful for. God saved my life the morning of December 11, 2008.

God has a greater plan for me than to crumble and blow away. Each day, I feel so grateful and thankful for his mercy and opportunity to make a positive impact for each person in this world who too, battle epilepsy, unwelcome.

Epilepsy, you may have come into my life thinking you were going to win, but I’m not sorry to tell you that you’ve met a far greater challenge and you will lose.

I don’t give up,
Tiffany Kairos

I am a happily-ever-after wife, an Epilepsy Diagnosee, Advocate for Epilepsy Awareness (The Epilepsy Network), life lover & Christ inspired! Life is a journey and I'm loving every moment of it. Even the bumps in the road!

4 Comments

  • Nick de Vries

    This is seriously an amazing article because it is the same situation as I’m dealing with and I do 100% agree what you are saying and it is better then any words discribe.

  • Erin

    I’m just now reading this and this is powerful . I to have struggled with epilepsy for 21+ years and I’m still learning about my sezuires .. Thank you for sharing your story this is amazing

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